Please Don’t Ask!

I really don’t know how this headdress found its way into the house, let alone onto Caleb’s head. Oh dear, life can be very confusing at the age of 3, almost 4.

A fun day visiting a friend for lunch. Thea was a great host, 9 children catered for, plus 3 adults. Salmon with honey – a great choice of protein, new potatoes and broccoli. We all had a great time. Thank you so much! A real shame that the chocolate fountain didn’t work out, but maybe a blessing in disguise on reflection.

A night out at the Woodspeen restaurant in woodspeen to boot, I feel a little bloated at this point, just as well it’s time for bed.

Looking forward to the weekend!

A Quiet (or not so) Few Days


It has been a quiet few days. No really – it has. Summing it up, there has been no all encompassing change of direction from our usual ‘organised chaos’, rather a little less stress from the little ones. Thor has been better behaved, though there is still the occasional steam, whistling from his kettle. He earned his iPad (Kindle 7) for 3 days of good behaviour, due to, let’s say, a marked change in his outbursts. Of course they still exist, but overall, he has behaved better. He is much more articulate and he certainly has shown within these last 6 months Overall, that he wants to be good. Just like Aaliyah, there is a significant amount of hope, that he ascends into the mantle of being a big boy (for Aaliyah girl) and being able to start ‘Big School’ in three months time. We have of course considered Caleb’s situation. It is difficult, but if you look on the surface, he is trying so very hard. His diction is certainly getting better, though his ability to articulate at the dinner table, without slouching or dropping more than he consumes! Well, we are still in two minds…

Aaliyah is definitely ready for ‘Big School’ – Mrs Snodgrass will be disappointed that her school for naughty children, will miss out on Aaliyah’s attendance, as will Mr Strickland from ‘Baby Camp’. Please keep your fingers crossed in these coming summer months. I really want them to all start this new and exciting chapter together.

P.S. remember that Mrs Snodgrass and Mr Strickland are fictional characters!

That’s all for now – thank you for reading.

Very Last Reflections of Caleb’s Locks

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The Bank Holiday Roasty

You might remember in earlier blogs, the drama that surrounds roast meals in our house. They were never easy and most of the time we went without any dessert, due to the sheer amount left on the children’s plates. Thor loves Yorkshire puddings sometimes and hates them at others. Aaliyah’s plate is usually untouched. And Caleb tends to wear his meal opposed to actually eating it. On the other hand, our oldest two, Tara and Amritsar, absolutely love a roast dinner. Both wanting seconds and even thirds. The shoulder of lamb went down well. They both enjoyed the flavour and are quite aware that lamb was today’s source of protein. Aaliyah however started to question ‘what – lamb, this is baby lamb’! Oh dear, we may have a veggie vegan in later years as she scrutinises her meat options often. Now, all of our children eat well and love chicken and pork. We don’t often eat lamb, but it was good to have the ‘where does our food come from debate’. Did I say that Aaliyah refused to eat anything on her plate? Thor ate his own body weight in roast potatoes, but very little else.

We will perceive of course with roast meals on high days and holidays, I am sure that things will get easier with time!

Making Cubes

Dadda’s ‘Design and Make’ today was an up cycle of the recycle with Tara and I. We talked about ‘Stuff’ and we decided to go with cubes and trains! We learnt new scissor skills and the art of making templates. Firstly I corrected Tara’s rather shoddy cutting by saying that we always cut away from ourselves. Something you’d have thought, would have been on the agenda at school. But when I saw Tara cutting a circle by twisting the scissors in all directions. I soon put her straight (we turn the paper and not the scissors) and we got going on cutting six squares for each cube, using the first square that we cut, as a template. Tara got colouring and I showed her how to assemble the cubes. Lots of sticky tape later – voila! Job well done.

Mr Strickland and Summer ‘Baby Camp’

For some time now the worry of Mrs Snodgrass’s ‘Naughty School’ has not quite been enough when it comes to behaving like a baby. Something that all of our little ones do on a fairly regular basis. Neither Mrs Snodgrass or Bettina are cut out to deal with small children who act like babies! You know, when a 3 or 4 year old is still constantly sucking on fingers or thumbs. Caleb, bless him is still finding his vocabulary, so in an attempt to get him to articulate a bit more – to try the extra distance, we have instilled yet another threat. The worry of spending the summer at ‘Baby Camp’ has proved a winner, asserting correctional incentives. Baby camp is run by the fictional ‘Mr Strickland’. His camp is one for little boys and girls who like to act like babies (on a fairly regular basis). His dormitories are stacked high with cots that are 5 in number long and five in number high. These walls of cribs are essentially walls of bars and behind these said bars are ‘Baby Camps’ inmates, young children who like to act like babies! All that can be heard in Mr Strickland’s dorms are baby cries and the sound of goo goo gaa gaa. Now nobody wants to spend the summer at ‘Baby Camp’, so just the mention of his name is enough to stop any babylike behaviour in our house, at least for a while…

The Boy That is Thor

Great picture Thor, but truth be told, he is saying ‘Dadda, my finger hurts, my finger hurts’. Though I am now reminiscing about his very bad behaviour at preschool yesterday. He lunged out at one of the teachers with his fist. Very, very naughty, I think you’ll agree. Today however, I think he made his amends. He was a bit silly at lunchtime, not eating his corned beef sandwich and throwing it at Remus to make a quick meal if it – but overall today he has been a real superstar. So much as to me making a deal with him. Like Aaliyah, he has been promised his very own iPad (fire tablet).

As you may recall, Aaliyah is now a model student. All down to being good for 7 days and being given a Kindle Fire 7 tablet like her sisters. I held back on the offer to Thor a number of times now as I believe he can not be a good boy for 7 hours , let alone 7 days. Well, I gave him a handicap and said to him ‘If you can be good for 3 days, you will get the tablet’. He was very good tonight, but will he fall foul to his naughtiness in the morning? I will keep you updated…

Hounded off the Dogs Bed


You might be aware that the only ones who do not sleep on the dogs bed in our house are the dogs! Yes, Remus and Gracie can always be found on the sofas – so much so, that it is generally me that snuggles up on the dogs bed in the evening, post the children’s bed time and the children enjoy the enlarged cushion in the daytime hours. John is staying in London tonight and once I said to Remus and Gracie ‘no John tonight, just Andi, Remus and Gracie’, they completely understand that it is only us here tonight. There is suddenly no whining, waiting for Johns arrival, they know that it’s just them and me. Well tonight they decided that they needed to be close – for twenty minutes they nuzzled and walked around in circles, trying to get settled on that said ‘dogs bed’, with me sprawled out ‘akimbo’. Very unusual behaviour, as they love the sofa so much. Well, there I was, lying in the middle of the dogs bed and both nudged for space to the rear and front of my relaxed slumber. The result was me, finally getting up as there is only so much space on the said cushion and here we conclude their somewhat strange behaviour and I now sit in the sofa whilst the dogs are chilled in front of the television on the dogs bed. Oh, our hounds are always surprising me, even after 10 very long and engrossed years of cohabitation. Remus and Gracie, they certainly broke the mold when you were both created in nature’s expression… Remus is now looking up with a look of contentment – he really is quite unique.

A Busy Enough Day

The girls and I did a fleeting visit to London to meet Daddy at work today and we saw an old friend for dinner earlier this evening. Only a quick  diary entry tonight, but we will be a little more settled in a day or so. Another busy day planned for tomorrow – whoosh. And guess how colourful our London bound train to Paddington was? I just love it. Go for it GWR.

A Day in the Cotswolds

Destination ‘Fun’ and a day out in the Cotswolds. I really had no idea that this part of Gloucestershire was so beautiful. Lunch was a nightmare however with Thor and Caleb getting rowdy in the restaurant. I really hate the way some people happily look on with distain when they see children behaving badly. They have this look that just exudes ‘bad parent’. It’s always the people without children I’ve noticed. Those with little ones know the struggle you’re up against. It makes me smile when you get the very occasional supportive nod from a person who obviously knows what you are up against.

The day progresses and we drive on to the next ‘moment’ or pleasant distraction…

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Welcome Home MiMi


After seven days of searching, MiMi is finally unearthed. Thor is besides himself and very proud to be the one that found him. Well, he was the one to have lost him after all. And guess where Thor’s intrepid bear was hiding all of this time? He was just discovered hiding in the piano stool. Well all is back as it should be. One very happy little boy and his most favourite bear ever.

Saturday Morning

Good morning to all. Not even 7am here in ‘The Shires’ and here we all sit, in the living room. A very early bed invasion – I am talking 5am and downstairs we ascended soon after! Tara was first down and worked out what she wanted to watch. Something called Beatbugs on Netflix. I guess the Michael Jackson foundation (if they still own the rights) want to instil the music of ‘The Beatles’ back catalogue early on in life – the entire musical score for the program is the beauty that is ‘The Beatles’. At present that timeless tune called ‘Let it Be’ is to be heard. Okay, back down to the ground, we had a breakfast of toasted raisin and cinnamon bagels and I’m about to sort out some clothes for the day. There is no John today, he’s back from Dublin at 6pm tonight. So I am sure we will have a fun, but less ‘crazy’ day as we would have had with John here, they all seem to play up that bit more to buy the attention of Daddy! Caleb is looking well without the plaster cast, I think you’ll agree! More of our goings on later today.

Oh! Did I mention that I peeled and cut 2 x pineapples into half Moons for candying. Just poached and I am about to set out to dry them out in the dehydrator. Home made candies are just ‘The Best’! Especially when dipped in chocolate…

Eighteen Moons ‘Birth Day’


How had this happened?

Here I was, on a flight from Heathrow to Mumbai, on my own. John should have been there with me, we should have been collecting our twins together. But he had been prevented from coming because he was their biological father. While I was free to go and collect them. Despite my frustration I had to give a wry smile at the irony of the whole thing.

Staring into the darkness as we flew east, I felt worried. How was I going to cope with two small babies on my own? Somehow the idea of looking after the babies had seemed so much less daunting when I thought we’d be doing it together. Wishing I’d been to a few early-years parenting classes, I stared gloomily out of the window.

John had hugged me goodbye at Heathrow, both of us close to tears. He was certain that he would be able to come out soon – four weeks at the most, he thought. And in the meantime, he had hastily consulted a lawyer and given me Power of Attorney so that I could make all necessary decisions about the children’s welfare in his absence.

Heavy-hearted I thought back to our last trip to Mumbai, seventeen months earlier. We had both been so excited about starting the journey towards parenthood. Now the birth of our children was a day away and we should be travelling together to meet them and begin life as a family. Instead I had to do it for both of us. It was a difficult situation and I was just going to have to manage. If I didn’t know much about caring for new born babies, well, I would learn fast.

We landed in Mumbai early on the morning of March 25. I hadn’t slept a wink throughout the nine-hour flight. Grabbing my bags, I jumped into a taxi and headed for the Novotel at Juhu Beach, on the west coast of the city.

The birth of the twins, by caesarean section, was due that afternoon and I hoped to be able to see them soon afterwards. I was due to speak to Somya mid-morning, but our relationship had become strained since her misjudged advice that John needed a medical visa. Her recent emails had contained one-sentence replies to our questions. Was she going to cooperate now that I was actually here and the babies were due?

I wasn’t even sure which hospital to go to. I called John and told him I had arrived safely and he’d said he was sure everything would be fine. But after the call ended, I felt alone and ill-prepared. I sat at the desk in my room, staring out at the street below. It would all work out…wouldn’t it?

I called Somya, who told me to go to the Hiranandani Hospital where the twins would be born. At least that was the first step sorted. I showered and changed into fresh clothes and then left the hotel and found a taxi in the rank on the other side of the road.

‘Hiranandani Hospital’ I said. ‘How much?’

The driver nodded his head and said ‘1000 rupees’.  That was around £11, exorbitant for a taxi ride; the hospital had to be some distance away. But I had to get there, so I nodded and got in. We drove along the expressway for what seemed like hours. We left the city behind and kept on going.

I leaned forward. ‘Are you sure this is the right way?’

‘Oh yes sir, Hiranandani Hospital is in Thane, it is north of Mumbai. We are almost there now.’

Ten minutes later he deposited me outside the hospital. I asked him to wait, since I wasn’t sure how long I would be there or how I would find a taxi back.

In the maternity unit I found a nurse and asked her where I could find the surrogate mothers. She led me to the Sister, who spoke some English. ‘I am sorry Sir,’ she said, ‘We have no ward for surrogate mothers here; I believe you want Hiranandani Hospital in Powai’.

I stared at her in disbelief. ‘There are two Hiranandani Hospitals?’

‘Yes,’ she nodded. ‘And you are definitely in the wrong one.’

I rushed back outside to find the taxi still waiting. Sliding into the back seat I asked him where the other Hiranandani Hospital was.

‘Oh,’ he smiled. ‘That Hiranandani Hospital is back in Mumbai. Where we came from,’ he added helpfully.

Had he not thought to ask me which one I wanted? I didn’t even try asking that, I just told him to take me to the other one.

An hour and a half later we arrived outside a large rectangular, white building with a pillared entrance. By this time I was very hot, cross and suffering from lack of sleep, plus jetlag as a result of the five and a half hour time difference.

‘We are here Sir. That will be 2000 rupees,’ the driver said, still smiling.

I paid him and then called Somya to ask her why she hadn’t told me there were two hospitals with the same name. The connection was bad and I couldn’t understand what she was saying. Then the line went dead. I stared at my phone – had she just hung up on me? How dare she?

Clearly things were going from bad to worse. I just had to hope all would go well with the birth and the handing over of the twins. Somya I would reckon with later.

At the entrance there was the usual cabal of security guards who frisked me and searched my bag.

Inside I found myself in a large reception area, where I headed for one of two receptionists.

‘I am here for the surrogate Rehanna Khan and the expected birth of twins today?’

‘You will need to go to the hospital social workers’ office, just behind this reception to your right,’ she said.

I found the social workers’ office, but I could see through the glass window that there was no-one there. I knocked anyway, in case one of them was hiding under a desk. No reply. With no choice but to wait, I crossed to the nearby waiting area, close to a Hindu shrine of the deity Ganesh and took a chair between an elderly man and a pregnant woman.

This wasn’t going well. Perhaps the babies were here by now. Would I even get to meet them today? My head buzzed, but I could only wait and see. Surely my day had to get better at some point…

Half an hour later two social workers, a man and a woman, arrived back from their lunch breaks at the same time.

‘Hello,’ I said, ‘I am here for the twin births of surrogate Rehanna Khan.’

‘OK Sir, please come and sit down,’ one of them said. ‘I am Santos and this is Maria.’ He indicated the other social worker, who had come into the office with us.

I fumbled through the sheaf of documents in my bag and passed him the Power of Attorney, the Surrogacy Agreement naming me as John’s next of kin and our Civil Partnership Certificate, showing that I was his spouse. This combination of documents should have been enough to verify who I was, my connection to the twins and my right to see them. But Santos was shaking his head.

‘Forget about this document,’ he said, passing back the Civil Partnership Certificate. ‘Indian authorities do not acknowledge this. You will need to go to a notary office and have a statement notarised on stamped paper and signed by the notary, a government-appointed legal practitioner, explaining that you have this Power of Attorney and, as the next of kin, in John’s absence, will be acting as Guardian to the babies.’

‘But surely the Power of Attorney and the Surrogacy Agreement give me that right, even without the civil partnership,’ I protested.

‘I am sorry Mr Andrew,’ Maria said. ‘Here in India, you will need this additional notarised document, tying these two documents together. Then you may see the babies. There are many notaries in the city, just ask and you will be directed to one.’

There was no point in arguing. Promising I would be back, I picked up my papers and my bag and headed back outside, where I jumped into a passing rickshaw.

‘Notary office please’.

‘Huh? What is this?’

I got out my phone and looked up Notary Office in Powai and an address popped up. I showed it to the driver and he nodded and set off. Fifteen minutes later we stopped outside a residential address. I knocked on the door.

A young man answered the door. ‘Notary Office?’ I asked.

‘No, sorry,’ he said. Then he added, ‘There is an area a few kilometres from here where there are several notaries.’  He spoke to the driver in Hindi. The driver nodded and beckoned me back into the rickshaw.

We drove for 45 minutes through the bustling, honking Mumbai traffic until we reached one of the poorer districts, where tiny passageways criss-crossed one another and most ‘shops’ were simply open counters in the doorway of a small house. The driver stopped at the end of one of the passageways and pointed to it. ‘Down there,’ he said. I thanked him, paid and asked him to wait for me. He pointed to a tea-shop across the road. ‘You will be some time. I will be there,’ he said.

How long was this going to take? I headed down the alleyway, clutching my bag, which contained not only the precious legal documents but my money and passport, tightly under my arm.

There was no sign anywhere saying ‘Notary Office’. Why had I thought there might be? I was rapidly learning to adapt my expectations. I had to ask half a dozen vendors before I found my way to a small staircase leading up to a tiny, very hot waiting room where I sat for the next hour.

Finally, I was ushered into the office, another tiny room where a middle-aged man in a well-pressed, button-down white shirt sat at a desk covered with mountains of files and papers. Beside him a small electric fan whirred half-heartedly on a side table, blowing hot air from one side of the room to the other and making no difference at all to the stifling heat. He smiled and stood up to shake my hand. ‘I am sorry to have kept you waiting. I am Mr Chowdhury, the notary. How can I help you?’

I explained the situation to him and dug out the relevant paperwork.

‘Ah, Mr Webb, I am sorry you’ve had to come all this way. This problem can be easily sorted.’

He took a statement from me tying the Power of Attorney and Surrogacy Agreement together and then printed it onto the thin, officially stamped paper used for legal documents. After that there were several official rubber stamps and he signed it. Job done. Thanking him I headed back up the alleyway to where I had left the rickshaw. I found the driver, as promised, in the tea shop and we headed back to the hospital where I rushed to the social workers office.

It was empty.

‘They have gone home for the day,’ the hospital receptionist told me. ‘You will have to come back tomorrow.’

‘But they can’t have gone. They knew I was coming back. My babies have been born this afternoon and I need to see them. Surely there is some other social worker on duty in the evening?’

She smiled. ‘I am sorry, there is no social worker until 9am tomorrow. Come back then.’

I stood looking at the stairs leading up to the wards. Somewhere up there our twins lay, waiting for me. Had the birth gone as planned? Were they alright? It seemed so cruel that I would have to wait another night to find out. But in India, as I was discovering, waiting was a way of life – as much a part of most people’s existence as eating and sleeping. To the unavoidable in life; death and taxes, India has added, ‘waiting’.

I made my way back to the hotel, sad and frustrated. A phone call to John didn’t help. He had gone to the Indian High Commission first thing to tell them his children were being born that day, only to receive a totally disinterested, ‘your visa is being processed, we will notify you when it is ready’.

After a cold beer and a meal, I fell into bed completely exhausted. Tomorrow… I thought, as I slipped into a dreamless sleep… tomorrow everything will be different. Tomorrow I will meet our children and start to make plans to take them home.

The following morning, I was back at the hospital by nine. Maria and Santos were in their office and they seemed delighted to see me, which was encouraging.

‘Is everything in order Mr Andrew?’ Maria asked.

I got out the notarised statement and gave it to her. She read it and handed it to Santos.

‘Perfect,’ he beamed. ‘You can see your babies today.’

‘So, they’re well, everything is alright? Can I see them now?’

‘They are fine, all is well. But you can’t see them yet. Visiting hour begins at 10am. You can see them then and if you would like you will be able to feed them also.’

‘Yes, please, I’d like that very much. I’ll go and get a coffee and come back at 10.

I turned to go and then suddenly remembered something.

‘I’m so excited I almost forgot to ask. What sex are the babies?’

Maria smiled. ‘You and John have two beautiful baby girls. I hope you like the colour pink!’

‘Girls,’ I said, ‘oh that’s perfect. We have two girls.’

I couldn’t take it in. At last, after all the stress of the last few weeks, it was beginning to feel real. We were parents.

‘Have you chosen names?‘ Maria asked.

‘We have. Tara and Amritsar.’

‘They are very lovely names. You will have to decide who has which name. See you in half an hour.’

Too excited to sit down, I paced the reception area, clutching a cardboard cup of coffee from the hospital coffee shop. By five to ten I was back at the office.

Maria took me up to the hospital’s fourth floor, where she asked me to take a seat while she spoke to the Staff Sister. I could see them nodding and pointing in my direction and then Maria came back and said, ‘You will be called shortly. Good luck!’ She disappeared back down the stairs and I sat, tense as a racehorse at the starting gate, watching the Sister bustle off through a set of double doors and willing her to hurry up.

At that point, another door opened and a trolley-cot containing a small baby emerged, followed by two men. They were conversing with one another in Hebrew, but broke into English as a doctor emerged behind them.

‘We are so happy with this moment Doctor Soni,’ one of them said.

‘A very healthy three and a half kilos,’ the doctor replied. ‘Congratulations.’

The doctor, who I discovered had also delivered our girls, rushed off and one of the men fumbled in his pocket for a phone and then came over to me.

‘Please can you photograph us together,’ he asked.

‘Of course,’ I replied. ‘Boy or girl?’

One of the men picked the baby up and showed him to me, grinning from ear to ear. ‘Boy,’ he said. ‘Our first child.’

I took several photos of the two proud dads with their small boy.

‘I am Alon, this is Saul and this is baby Avi,’ said the one holding the baby.’

‘Nice to meet you, I’m Andi. ‘I’m just waiting to meet our two girls,’ I told them.

‘Congratulations,’ they laughed. ‘That’s wonderful.’

It felt so good to be congratulated as a new dad. All I needed now was to actually see my children.

‘Maybe see you again Andi,’ Alon called as they disappeared into the lift.

‘I hope so,’ I called after them.

I hoped I would see them again. It felt so heartening to be among people on the same mission.

Just then the Sister re-emerged through the double doors.

‘Mr Webb,’ she said. ‘You can see the babies now. They are on the second floor, in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit – the NICU.’ I must have looked alarmed because she went on, ‘Don’t worry, there is nothing wrong with them, they are not premature, it is usual for twins to spend a few days there when they are smaller at birth than single infants. Tell the reception there that you are here to see Rehanna Khan’s twins on behalf of the father.’

I bounded down the stairs to the second floor where I went to the reception desk and told the stern-faced receptionist that I was there to see Rehanna Khan’s babies.

‘So, you are not the babies’ father?’

‘No,’ I said through gritted teeth. ‘I am his civil partner. Please call down to Maria the social worker and check if you need to. They have all the paperwork.

‘Wait here,’ she said.

Half an hour passed before she returned. ‘You need to bring the paperwork here to us.’

There was now only 15 minutes of the visiting hour left. Afternoon visiting wasn’t until four – almost five hours away. Surely, they weren’t going to make me wait until then.

I shot back down to the social workers office. They were out.

An agonising hour later Maria reappeared. I explained the situation and she frowned. ‘They shouldn’t need to see the paperwork again. But wait a minute, I will get it.’

I headed back up the stairs with the papers and handed them to the receptionist, who was reminding me more and more of Nurse Ratched from One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest.

‘Wait here,’ she said.

She disappeared with the papers. By the time she returned it was past 12.

‘Come back at 2pm,’ she said. ‘You will be permitted to see the babies then.’

Fine. Back down the stairs again – at least I had to be getting fitter, I thought – I went out and found a cafe where I could sit and wait over a lunch of samosas.

At one-thirty I went back to the hospital and took up position beside the NICU reception, where Nurse Ratched pointedly turned her back to me.

Finally, at five past two, a nurse approached me. ‘Come this way, please,’ she said.

At the door of the NICU I was asked to take off my shoes and to put on a pink hospital gown, a pink hairnet and a pink mask. I was relieved that I couldn’t see myself.

It was hot and I was nervous as I followed the nurse past four Perspex incubator cots to two at the far end of the ward, one on each side. They were labelled Rehanna Baby One and Rehanna Baby Two.  In the cots lay two perfect small girls, each one swamped by an outsized nappy. Each had a mop of jet-black hair and eyes tight shut.

‘They are very healthy,’ the nurse said.

‘Can I touch them?’

‘Yes, put your hand in through the hole in the side of the cot.’

I slipped my hand into the first cot and held the baby’s tiny hand for a minute. Then I did the same with the other. Minute fingers curled around mine. ‘Which one is the oldest?’

‘This one weighed two point four kilos, she is heaviest so she is the first one. The other baby was two point three kilos.’ The oldest would be Amritsar. Her sister would be Tara.

I felt such pride and happiness.

‘Welcome to the world little ones,’ I whispered. ‘I am your Dadda.’

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Thursdays are Quiet Days


Well, that is if you exclude Remus and Gracie following me from room to room. They are never far out of sight! Thank you Michelle Martinoli (photographer) for today’s image. The girls at school, the little ones at preschool all day on Thursdays with a packed lunch and Sindy usually off until home time. Just me trying to work on my new project. Did I tell you about my idea for writing short stories with moral outcomes. Fuck! It’s really hard to get my head around writing fiction. And apologies for the ‘F’ word, but it is the perfect word to describe myself being at a loss for words. The day has been broken by the occasional text or phone call, a document to sign. So really not such a quiet Thursday after all. I don’t think that I have written an essay or short story since my Uni Days, but that work, like my diary was pretty factual. A little internet research has lead me to the formula for writing a good short story however. You start with a Crisis. You develop your characters quickly and set the location for your prose. Then you unravel your plot… I want to work on the content of several stories loosely based on a few of Aesop’s Fables, but I’m still having trouble figuring out the best ones to consider. If they were all as straight forward as ‘The Boy Who Cried Wolf’, now that would be great. Thor would be the perfect candidate for that storyline! And it is an easy story to follow. I am trying to imagine stories that grown ups would enjoy reading, but have content that can be simplified into a shorter story with child appeal that could be illustrated and would be fun to read! Not an easy ask. Any thoughts out there?

On another matter, it’s a real bugger not driving a car. It seems that Sindy, our nanny is heavily relied upon. She did not take this morning off, rather take Caleb back to the hospital for his plaster cast to be removed. Woohoo, he is now a regular little boy again, one without a broken arm. They are due back in an hour or so, after the school run. I’m really looking forward to seeing Calo, but hoping hard that he will try to be a little less ballistic. But trying to tell a three year old to ‘take it easy’ is in itself not an easy ask.

John off to Dublin this afternoon to visit his Mum Hazel for her birthday tomorrow. Happy Birthday Hazel, from us all Xxx

More later…

In Memory of Jean E Paradise

Jean Eve Paradise was my Mum. She had three boys (Paul, Brandon and me) and a daughter Shae. Yesterday was the 14th May – her birthday. My mum passed four years ago this September. She is missed very much, but we always remember ‘Grandma Jean’ with colour and theatrics. She was in the movie ‘Charlottes Webb’, an extra in a number of scenes, but a few closeups in the scene at the hairdressers. She also acted in a number of adverts in Australia. The main one being shot in Melbourne for a national jeans brand ‘Just Jeans’. Odd that her name was also Jean. Well yesterday was her birthday and today’s photograph is of a pink orchid. Something I would send her every year on her birthday. She loved the colour pink and she adored orchids as they have a good shelf life. One year I broke the model and sent her yellow tulips. She was horrified. She called me and inquired ‘why would you do that’? I had to apologise and swear that it would never happen again…

I miss you Mum. You are fondly remembered.

The Boy Who Likes to Covet

Okay, the bigger story would have been Thor’s second night without his beloved MiMi, his very best bear. I’m not sure where he is to be quite frank. John and I looked high and low yesterday, but alas to no avail. Today’s search has also not been fruitful. The picture above is Thor’s return from preschool this lunchtime, heralding half a trash can of refuse. He wouldn’t put it down for a while, he just held onto it tightly. He finally desisted and enjoyed his chicken sandwich with Dadda’s home made tomato chutney. ‘No’ I said ‘that junk is not going upstairs’. The little ones enjoyed their midday nap and later arose. Not too many mentions of ‘where’s MiMi’ and a trip to the park with Sindy before picking up the girls from school. He was allowed to take his tray of recyclables to the park. ‘Please Sindy’ I implored ‘please can we loose the pile of rubbish’? Now much later and they are all in bed. Sindy has kept the smorgasbord of junk in the car – to be discarded on tomorrow’s school run in a public bin! You see, Thor checks out our recycle bag at home often.

Thor was shouting down for MiMi a moment ago, but all seems okay now. I really have looked everywhere, even the watering can in the garden. You see, he likes to put MiMi in secret places! A shoe box, a paper bag, in fact any place where he feels MiMi will be comfortable and safe – then he completely forgets where poor MiMi might be…

Last time MiMi went missing, he was found in a draw in our bedroom two weeks later. I will update you as and when the situation rectifies itself.

A Day in The Garden

Been a long enough day here in ‘The Shires’. An early morning bed invasion at 6am and toasted sourdough bread with the last of ‘Dadda’s X-Rated Xmas Jam’ (spiced pear and raisin) for brecky. Another birthday party for the children at 10.30am at a well known soft-play establishment, yet Dadda had to remain at home whilst John managed all five at Williams birthday. Woohoo for William – 6 years old today. I stayed at home to meet an old friend at 11am, Michelle Martinoli, a fab gal who is one of the best photographers I know. She kindly said she would help Dadda capture a few images of himself! Well, you know the score, it’s always me stood behind the lens, so I never get my image captured. And after today, I can happily parade myself on my diary every now and then. Mich is great – she doesn’t tolerate fools lightly, she’s a no nonsense kind of woman and I love her for just being her!

And Mich is a dog lover – her own loveable pooch Loppy, she missed very much, but Remus and Gracie did all they could to make her feel welcome.

We got a few reasonable shots, which is great as I don’t feel I photograph well – you know, looking vague, eyes closed, mouth open. I am now laughing to myself. Anyhow, is the lady in question. Check her out! I remember a retrospective of ‘Pete Burns’ (you spin me round) she did a fair few years back. A great recorder of personality and expression. Mind you, I’m pretty conservative in comparison to such high camp frivolity.

The day ended for the little ones after a rather raucous bath time. Thor and Aaliyah were ballistic, Amritsar and Tara were not that much better behaved and Caleb, dear Caleb, after his wet wipe bath (remember his broken arm), he was so sweet. He actually just pounced on me and gave me a big kiss on the lips and a very affectionate hug – it really moved me as it was quite out of the blue.

A long day and an early night I think. So here’s to the beginning of another week here in ‘The Shires’ with ‘Diary of a Gay Dad’, with me Andi Webb. Thank you for reading. Nite nite all.

Roll on the weekend

Well if our robot can be left to do its job, we should have a nice vacuumed living room floor for the weekend. But I fear it is an uphill struggle. To be honest, I’m a bit rubbish at doing the cleaning. I keep a clean kitchen however. Don’t get me wrong, but having qualified as a chef many years ago, I still apply the kitchen rules, ‘if there’s time to lean – there’s time to clean’. Mind you, outside of the kitchen, said rules do not apply. Sindy our nanny helps out when she can and we have a cleaning duo Becky and Hayley who come in once a month. My time is mostly spent tidying up after our motley crew. And that in itself is a full time job. Becky and Hayley have said in the past ‘you guys keep one of the tidiest houses that we do’, but with the sheer amount of ornamentation, we fell foul to being one of the dustiest. More later – roll on the weekend!